I freakin angry and freakin frustrated at the same time.
can't seem to cool down.
first, i saw my report card
kay, shld i say?
i only hav 1 a1 - chinese.
i failed science and geog.
the first time i failed geog. wtf lah!
and 2nd,
some freakin mother f-ing asshole came to my class and vandalised my handbk.
plus, that freakin idiot threw my handbk, foolscap and calculator on the floor.
the calculator was totally covered with footprints can?!
aiya, this is no big deal lah, alr used to it.
the worst is my dad lah.
i ACCIDENTALLY dropped my mum's phone onto the ground and he sounded like he'd wanted to have me dead.
hey, i ACCIDENTALLY dropped it, its not like i did it on purpose.
AND HEY, wtf, jus droppin once wont kill right?
and plus, the phone is not like new or what, its like quite a long time liaaos.
so whats with all the ruckus?!
-.- ZZZ woah my head is like gonna go "BOOM!" anytime. >< freakin suay day.

8:38 PM sprinklinq love Y

The raindrops landed on me, and my skin tingled in reaction.
these little raindrops had a chilly yet warm embrace towards me.
I seemed to have cooled down and not so tensed up anymore.
I felt as refreshed as ever, leaving those thoughts of shame and anger behind.
It seems so that I had cleared my mind.
I was grinning gleefully from ear to ear, not noticing how red they'd become.
I had used to think that living on was something that was useless for one who'd already lost his/her goals.
But then, I thought again.
What right does one have to decide on fate, like death?
No one.
Just then I had realised my foolishness.
I have now awakened from those nightmares.
Everything was a joke. Life was the biggest joke one could ever make out of it.
However, living on in pain isn't a pleasure.
Choosing to end one's life is even worst.
Those who had chosen suicide were foolish.
Some were driven to it, while others had chosen it at their own account.
And somehow, I was once one of them, being possessed by these foolishness.
Well, I had thought through it.
Life can be able to go on with determination.
Failure was faced by me for countless times, and I have set my mind on to not give in.
Since I have gone so far, why give up?
No point.
I stared into the gloomy sky once again.
These drops of rain had increased in both volume and amount.
Soon, it was raining buckets.
And then the lightning struck, the thunder arrived shortly after the lightning's descendant.
I made up my mind to believe in myself.
Fate will it be, but there are also other factors that're able to change it.
Advices, hardwork, positive/negative views, etc.
Facing fate it will be, however, I will never give in. NEVER.
I shall work harder, strive for success, and make my way towards victory.
VICTORY IT SHALL BE!!!

8:52 PM sprinklinq love Y

Oh hellos.
Seems like i haven't updated for a long time yeah?
hmm... i think it was 'cuz i lost interest in posting. and common test week was then.
i definitely flunked chem and maths, i think.
but anyways,
i just got beaten up by my mum just now.
for what, you ask?
just because of folding blankets -.-
i estimate that i was pinched twice, slapped 4 times, and caned around 8 to 10 times...
hahas, i can't believe i can remember that.
well, i was asked to fold the blankets,
but i had my own way of folding...
then, she demonstrated, and she wanted me to change to her way of folding blankets, RIGHT AWAY.
isn't that a bit too harsh?
i mean, well, i was trying very hard to change, you know.
but then, its like my mum didn't care.
she wanted me to fold the blankets that way.
but, we all know that time is needed to change, right?
oh well, i guess she was just trying to take the opportunity to cane, slap and pinch me, since she was so pissed off.
i don't know what i did to make her this angry.
and now, i'm not mad at my mum,
however, i'm mad at my dad.
he told my mum to cane me more, while my mum was already caning me.
and hey, i didn't even provoke my dad this morning at all, okay?
== i seriously don't know what's going on these days.
everything seems corrupted.
my whole life is in a huge mess, and the worst thing is,
i don't know how to rearrange it back to its original form.
recently, my mum has changed drastically.
she wasn't like this last time.
i mean, well, she has a very bad temper since i was a kid,
but it's gone from bad to worst now.
and nowadays, my dad always asks my mum to cane or scold me more while my mum is already doing so.
first, i don't understand why he has to do so.
i didn't make him angry. he seems to always have an evil smirk on his face while i was being caned, like he was being possessed or something.
it's so weird, you know?
ah, one more thing,
yesterday lunch was the funniest lunch in my whole life ever (:
thank you, Boee, Jia Jie, Jun Wen, Jayne and Kian Chang.
I guess yesterday was the best day of this year.... =D

11:50 AM sprinklinq love Y

HELLOS PEOPLE!!!
i havent posted for really such a loooooong time yeah.
anyways common test wk is starting and i have just started reading chem notes today... -.-
*_* and i am still watching fated to love you.
ZZZ how stupid can i be yeah?
and luckily today no xiao ke. cancelled it for revision sia. i sacrificed... LOLS
yeah yeah i know its lame... ==
but ya, whatever.
and and in fated to love you,
i find that the xin yi changed into elaine.
that new xinyi is such a jerk.
and its like so draggy, omg.
i prefer iswak and tka. idk why ppl like ftly so much. it has the highest record manx. -.-
aiya, now is not the time to talk about all these crap.
what on earth am i doing?! oh god.
nevermind i shall be guai today and revise chem properly.
hahas. but i want to continue watching ftly lehhhhs.
you guys sure know that i'm not the type that can stop on tv dramas, esp when its episodes are all out.... HAHHAS.
i'm laughing at my own "joke"
kayyys, wadeva manx.
I'm gonna die of headache!! HELP!!!

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2:57 PM sprinklinq love Y

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