I don't understand, I don't understand!
My mother, she... she restricts me from almost everything!
Restricting me from going out with friends, from using my computer to watch shows, animes and read mangas, and now, when she already promised me that she'd let me watch 爱就宅一起, she immediately changes her words and she scolded me...
I can't do anything about it...
It's as if I would go crazy any minute now...
and then, I logged into Heymath to "act" that I was doin homework so that I could continue using the computer.
Then, I was watching the congruence figure video...
she asked me how did I move the diagram.
I was seriously VERY fed-up with her, and I told her (in a bad way) that I had clicked one of the buttons.
AND THEN she scolded me again.
Okay, first, it was obviously her own fault.
second, what's wrong with me watching idol dramas?
preventing me from watching it on tv will make me to be even more tempted to watch it on the computer.
third, I will be even more rebellious than before.
example, she always restrict me from going out with friends, then I had to sneak out.
second example, restricting me from watching shows and other things on computer made me even more tempted to do so, and I had to lie to her to watch it.

You see? The more restrictions, the more rebellious I get.
Why not be more open-minded, and spare a thought for the me who's always under all these pressure?
I wouldn't be like that if my mother hadn't been so restrictive.
I would like to tell parents that are reading my blog (if there are any) that restricting your children isn't such a good thing.
Sometimes, being more open would be even better.
but, not that free also.
I am all grown up, already turning 14, and I want more freedom.
Let's not talk about allowing me to go out with my friends,
but she doesn't even allow me to watch idol dramas.
that's too harsh, don't you think so?

10:12 PM sprinklinq love Y

Went for Talentime audition today...
I was trembling... not because of the teachers,
but it was because I had about 4 seniors there.
And one of them was the judge -.-
In the end, after CO ended,
I asked him whether I got in a not.
He shook his head. LOL He dont dare to look at me!! HAHAS
anyways, I was so called "disqualified".
AS EXPECTED.
but I was really sad. I still havent gotton over it yet.
It was my dream to become a pop star you know..
and then my first obstacle was the school's talentime..
in the end, I failed here and I couldnt procede on...
but, however how badly I did,
it was a very good experience nevertheless.
I think I have gained experience towards judges now,
and I look forward to participating next year's Talentime audition.
However I hope the number of judges will decrease.
I was very nervous when I was singing. My shoulders and legs were trembling. LOLS.
haiz, anyways, I am trying to stay happy always... trying not to be emo-ing. =DDD

Labels: disqualified from talentime audition

9:32 PM sprinklinq love Y

oh man...
now is already 12.04 am
i am just so pissed...
looks like i'm freaking out AGAIN.
hella hella hella freak!
i think i'm gonna explode anytime now.
everything just seems to go wrong.
everything gets in my way...
nothing goes along my wishes.

1) Ms Lai lost my self-test 3 ws...
went to find her around 1.40pm today in HODs' office.
and she digged all her drawers and tables...
in the namelist, my name was ticked. i had handed it in.
but idk why, she just happened to lose it.
heck. i'm just pissing off.
2) chinese newspaper thingy... i think i only got 5.
and its like shit, okay?!
3) screwed up the maths test today!
i doubt whether i will even pass it.
4) my mum was pissing off with my dad.
oh wth.
i have to listen to them quarrel for like... everyday!?!
5) so many mosquito bites!
its itching like hell!
i can't stand the itch! i keep scratching it, and then it swollens... -.-'''

you see? now u get what i mean?
these 2 years are the worst years that i've ever gone through...

11:58 PM sprinklinq love Y

I am so damn pissed today...
stupid partner of mine being so irritating...
he keeps asking qns during all lessons...
during ACC, he didn't do the qns 'cuz he didn't know there was a column of answers behind for him to choose! ==
he's like so retarded okay?!
anyways, that made me so pissed...
-.- he even asked me for my answers & he thought i was clever... -_-'''
then qing rong passed me his piece of paper to tell me to pass to weiyang...
suddenly yiting shouted for me to quickly pass to her.
i told her i was looking for some certain answers and i was like pissing off,
so i scolded behind her back...
ROAR! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
last year and this year just isn't my year! I have done so many wrong things that i even made myself so pissed!
and yeah, yiting, idc what you say about me yeah.
but all i have to say is sorry.
if you don't accept my apology,
then nothing more can be said, and i can't do anything more than that.
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anyways chem test was such a failure.
i know i'll pass...
and i'm aiming for 19 and above...
but it seems impossible 'cuz i lost around 4 to 5 marks,
and idk what more mistakes i will make.

to think of it, everything makes so SO PISSED and i'm like freaking my head out.
oh hell.
i am running outta luck.
new year is here,
i thought i would regain my luck...
but now, it seems that my luck will never be replenished
and now its running thin.

hmmm... so the analysis is - I'M SO SUAY!

Labels: new year's luck running out

9:54 PM sprinklinq love Y

Hi! I updated on my fanfic! chapter 1 is already up!
anyways...
god bless us that the Geog test will be on wk 6...
pls pls pls! i didnt revise at all! ><
omg...
and ytd i fell down at the back of the classroom...
most of the guys laughed... -.-
kays wadeva, like i giv it a damn.
now there's a bruise on the spot where i fell on.
it so painful!
and when i walk i can feel the pain!
argh! its like... idk! i'm so mixed up now...
and idk why...
i'm so emo nowadays... xDDDD
kkk. cya people!

7:44 PM sprinklinq love Y

Hello!
New blog, new post, new skin, new url, new everything.
hope that this blog of mine is gonna be alive.
i sure hope that it won't be as dead as the one that i deleted.
kayys... hahas... i can't stand the sleepiness anymore, so...
GOOD NIGHT!!! SWEET DREAMS EVERYONE!!! XD

11:37 PM sprinklinq love Y

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